M I a liar?
you: seriously ?? can you prove that? me : yeah , i guess . you: Wait !! what ??? you can prove that! but how??? How do you know ?? me: read it and you will know .
this may be a little exaggerated but yeah i have consciously or sub consciously acquired this trait , but i will never accept it in spite of doing it brazenly. Last weekend I was hanging out with a couple of recently acquainted friends, we met at a fancy restaurant to acknowledge our newly found bonhomie . I knew them for a long time as they were my classmates but was not on talking terms apart from the general greetings . the conversation started garrulously covering various contours . during the conversation one of them casually asked me “ where do I live ?” , about my hometown , I inadvertently lied as it was not where I wanted it to be or may be because I thought they would look down upon me ,so I lied . I knew there was a little probability of them ever knowing the truth as I was living out of my state . we ordered some drinks and talked about the ambience around the place , the sexy girl behind my back , the grumpy old lady with her perennially tamed husband , a middle aged man looking at the same sexy girl etc .Then they asked me about my future plans , I didn’t have any , so I lied once again as they already had plans n were elaborating them endlessly. Surprisingly they didn’t ask me much about mine , I guess they were more interested in showing off . but may be they were lying too , I don't know , how would I know , so I did what I could do , I plainly lied. I wanted to change the subject but I was already on the back foot . Then finally came the dicey one about the girlfriend , I knew if I would lie then that will be followed with a range of volleys and I would have no answer , I looked at them ,smiled coyly , did a couple of head tilt , heaved a sigh , then guess what, i lied . I was not acting , I was just taking time to think, I dnt really know what I was thinking .i was getting a little peevish and wanted to vomit “u bonehead, u cant just go and pick , its not easy to find one “. for the rest of the evening my bridled tongue was taking conscious detours . on the way back I stopped near the court premises , looked up to its top , grazing through the stairway subconsciously. during those sluggish moments it dawned upon me that this is the perfect place to dissect whether it was right on part of me to lie or not ,as this place epitomises the liars and the lies , to go to the root of why I was so anxious when I was answering . Why was i so timid ? why? May be it has percolated so deep n has become so natural that I don’t even have the urge to purge this. m I lying to them or to myself? Either way it cant be warranted . how long do I have to put on this cloak of uncertainty , why cant I just toss it in the air and feel relieved ? the answer to all these questions can be both yes or no , depending on how deep the damage has been done. When answering those question one should keep in mind that we all are going to die someday n that’s the ultimate truth, all these lies will not matter at that point , a point where everything will come to standstill…
you: seriously ?? can you prove that? me : yeah , i guess . you: Wait !! what ??? you can prove that! but how??? How do you know ?? me: read it and you will know .
this may be a little exaggerated but yeah i have consciously or sub consciously acquired this trait , but i will never accept it in spite of doing it brazenly. Last weekend I was hanging out with a couple of recently acquainted friends, we met at a fancy restaurant to acknowledge our newly found bonhomie . I knew them for a long time as they were my classmates but was not on talking terms apart from the general greetings . the conversation started garrulously covering various contours . during the conversation one of them casually asked me “ where do I live ?” , about my hometown , I inadvertently lied as it was not where I wanted it to be or may be because I thought they would look down upon me ,so I lied . I knew there was a little probability of them ever knowing the truth as I was living out of my state . we ordered some drinks and talked about the ambience around the place , the sexy girl behind my back , the grumpy old lady with her perennially tamed husband , a middle aged man looking at the same sexy girl etc .Then they asked me about my future plans , I didn’t have any , so I lied once again as they already had plans n were elaborating them endlessly. Surprisingly they didn’t ask me much about mine , I guess they were more interested in showing off . but may be they were lying too , I don't know , how would I know , so I did what I could do , I plainly lied. I wanted to change the subject but I was already on the back foot . Then finally came the dicey one about the girlfriend , I knew if I would lie then that will be followed with a range of volleys and I would have no answer , I looked at them ,smiled coyly , did a couple of head tilt , heaved a sigh , then guess what, i lied . I was not acting , I was just taking time to think, I dnt really know what I was thinking .i was getting a little peevish and wanted to vomit “u bonehead, u cant just go and pick , its not easy to find one “. for the rest of the evening my bridled tongue was taking conscious detours . on the way back I stopped near the court premises , looked up to its top , grazing through the stairway subconsciously. during those sluggish moments it dawned upon me that this is the perfect place to dissect whether it was right on part of me to lie or not ,as this place epitomises the liars and the lies , to go to the root of why I was so anxious when I was answering . Why was i so timid ? why? May be it has percolated so deep n has become so natural that I don’t even have the urge to purge this. m I lying to them or to myself? Either way it cant be warranted . how long do I have to put on this cloak of uncertainty , why cant I just toss it in the air and feel relieved ? the answer to all these questions can be both yes or no , depending on how deep the damage has been done. When answering those question one should keep in mind that we all are going to die someday n that’s the ultimate truth, all these lies will not matter at that point , a point where everything will come to standstill…
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